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hey there!! yeah… as what u’ve already expected, i’m very excited to tell you my experience meeting JARED PADALECKI from SUPERNATURAL .. OMG! that was very indescribable, but am tryin very hard to describe this for ya! haha! okay…. so, here we go!

i didnt know much about supanova actually, in fact, when there was a supanova convention in brisbane, i really didnt give a shit to go. they said, it’s for gamers, those who like ‘anime’, comics and stuff, and….i dun know.. stuff like that. but there is also convention for tv series, like heroes, lost, and currently supernatural. knowin that jared padalecki aka sam winchester would be coming to supanova convention in sydney replacing hayden panettiere from heroes, i quickly said to ponnie when she asked me whether or not i was interested, "I’M IN!"

1st time nmpk jared depan mate, we were like… shit! is that him?? o my God! i gulped once! but… turned out he wasn’t jared. he was… i dunno.. someone else. haha. then, yeah suddenly i saw this one very tall man, wearing ‘bju kotak2′ kaler coklat, talking to some supanova staff, not very far from where i was standing with ponnie.. i still stared at him very sharply, but in a confused way too coz that couldn’t be jared, his hair was lighter than usual.. then, he was like turned his head a bit, and i could see his nose, and at that moment, i really knew who i was staring at.. i turned to ponnie, and grabbed her hands, and confidently spoke to her very slowly in a way to control my excitement.. "dude, that is seriously jared, oh shit!!"

JADI GILER SEKEJAP!! VERY INDESCRIBABLE!! SORRY, CAN’T DESCRIBE THAT..

after i had calmed myself down, we were thinking whether or not to buy the supanova pass in order to get jared’s autograph and a picture with him. but then, we decided to just buy the pass even tho it costs us a lot. we wanted to put the privilege on the 2nd day of the convention. couldn’t wait for the next day! that night at the hotel, i couldn’t sleep. really couldn’t sleep.. i prayed very hard that i wouldnt embarrass myself infront of jared. haha!

THE DECLARATION OF EMY WINCHESTER by JARED HIMSELF!

infront of jared time autogrpah signing, here’s the dialogue
jared   : hi.. (smilin, CUTE!)
emy     : hi… (nervous)
jared   : so, it’s emy?? (lookin at my name on the piece of paper given by his assistnt)
emy     : yeah, but could you plz write emy winchester?? (penuh mengharap)
jared   : (lookin at me) winchester? owh yeah, sure! (writing emy winchester and signing autograph) hey, that’s funny. you’re one of the winchester now. (smiling at me while giving the autograph)
emy     : yeah…  (noddin my head, smilin.. thank God, i didn’t do anythin stupid!) hey, say hi to jensen for me!
jared   : owh yeah, i will. i will. (smilin again, very nice!)

before i left, i turned to look at him again, and  know what? he was still smilin at me!! one thing for sure, he declared me as emy winchester!! and now, i’m officially emy winchester!!!

JARED MENTIONED ABOUT ME DURING QnA

random fan    : is there any possibility for sam to have another winchester?
jared             : owh, i dun know that. but just now there was a fan asked me to write winchester or sumthin.. bla bla bla..

the ‘emy winchester’ thing, do i need to say more?? i mean, if he really said ‘emy winchester’ instead of ‘winchester or sumthin’, i was really gonna scream!!!

THE HUG!!!!!!

seriously jared is pretty tall. during the photo shoot, when it was my turn, even with the step, i was just about his chin! tu pon dh jingkit dah… i actually intended to hold his photo for the special photograph with jared, and shit, i did something stupid! coz i was so nervous standing very close to him, i didnt realize that the photo that i was holding, was not facing the camera, but facing me instead. and jared said, "do u wanna hold that?" i was blurr… " err.. yeah.." jared took the photo slowly from my hand, and said, "if u wanna hold it, u hold it like that.." he said while flipping the photo facing the camera. i was like, COMON!! how did i do somethin very stupid like that?? it was totally embarrassing! he smiled and put his hand on my shoulder, ready for the picture. i was holding his photo with autograph with my right hand, and i cant remember where did i put my left hand.. was it his waist?? or his back??? hahaha! doesnt matter, yg penting after tgkp gmbar, i said to him, "can i have a hug?’ and jared said, ‘yeah sure’. i remembered putting my hands around his neck, and hugged him! i could feel his big hands around me! hahaha! that moment i tell u, it was… again, indescribable. know what? he smelled nice! but seriously, he’s very tall!! after that, i said thanks.. yeah, what else should i say.. haha! and he smiled…. always smiling… nodding his head while saying, ’sure..’.

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hey, do u know the feeling, when you like someone so much yet at the same time they’re impossible to meet, to talk to, but just so happened that suddenly (well, in my case not very suddenly), u get a chance to show them that you appreciate them, even to hug them!! do u know that feeling? haih…. ni baru jared, blom jensen… i’m very lucky and for this, i’m very grateful!

nway, there are some videos that i recorded during the QnA session..

Jared Padalecki, ‘how to pronounce the letter H?’

Jared Padalecki, ‘naked scene in Heart episode, Supernatural Season 2′

Jared Padalecki, ‘texas speech’

Jared Padalecki, ‘things that Jensen did to annoy him’

Jared Padalecki, ’special request, "i lost my shoes" scene from Bad Day at the Black Rock episode, Supernatural Season 3′

he was so funny and very entertaining!

nway, hopefully the fact that kitorg je yg pki tdg kat tempat tu, it would make us stood out from the rest and… be remembered by jared! hahaha!

word of the day : INDESCRIBABLE
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hey there…
it’s a been a while since the last time i was here. many things happened. but i am not intending to describe all of those in details, just wanna do some catchin up briefly.

HOLIDAY (winter break)
yeah, i’m on holiday right now which is a big yay for me. finish all those craps assignments, and now i’m free! well at least, until this coming 21st july where the the next semester starts. so, i might be busy workin and at the same time, busy wasting money and time..

MELBOURNE
went to melbourne, recently. in fact, i just got back from there. been to many interesting places, experience lots of interesting things (well, if missing the flight, and having to withdraw another amount of money to buy another flight ticket can be considered as ‘interesting’, then i would say, it is interesting), and being in interesting weather (yeah, right!). in short, i love every inch of it. if i were given free tickets to melbourne and sydney, hell i’ll choose melbourne. haha!

SYDNEY
despite the fact that i prefer melbourne than sydney, this saturday i will be flyin to sydney (again) to… erm, meet a friend. a famous super-superb extraordinary friend. it’ll be a blind-date actually coz i have never met him, but yeah… am hoping that would be some kind of ‘experience’ for me. haha! not goin alone, but with ponnie. so… looking forward to it!

EURO 2008
sadly, i hardly have enough time to watch euro this time. 1st, because the stupid aussie television are not airing the games through standard channels. if u wanna watch, then u have to subscribe it (it’s kinda same deal with msia+astro i guess). 2nd, i dun have time to watch it. actually there are some night cafes showing the games and i’ve been tryin to make the time but i’m too busy with my other things. too bad, i know! the feelin not being able to watch the games, i hate it! suddenly i miss home. to be exact, i miss astro at home! since england players are now having an embarrassing summer holidays, so for this euro 2008, i’ll go for spain, and netherlands (heard bout the FITNA  thing, but screw it! i dont mix sports with that irrelevant stupid issues created by childish+evil+stupid people. plus, i believe the players dont have anything to do with it.)

ENTOURAGE
hm… as what u can see on my profile, i’m addicted to this series right now. 1st, they dont have heroins. man, they’re just fucking around every time. i guess it’s kinda… cool! 2nd, well.. there’s no 2nd. they dont have heroins. that’s the only reason. owh, just wanna mention, i love ari gold in this series!

KING DORK
yeah, king dork! there is this man, i dunno what’s his problem. keeps
on messing with me. argh! i feel like tearing him apart, rip his bones
from his body, and throw him into fire! ……….. haha! na-ah! just
kiddin.. i’m not some kinda psycho or anythin. that’s just a title of a
book that i’m currently reading actually. about a boy, or should i say
a loser or obviously a ‘dork’ at his high school, who’s trying to
be… erm, not so ‘dork’, i guess.

JARED PADALECKI (supernatural) AND EX-FIANCEE SANDY MCCOY
yeah, this really threw me! they’re not together anymore. i mean, what the hell? they just got engaged 3 or 4 months ago, and suddenly out of the blue, they decided to call off the engagement. well, not really my business, but hey, if this actually has somethin to do with my jensen, then hell that’s my business. fans like me keep wondering…. is it actually true that jared and jensen are fuckin attracted to each other, in u know what kinda of way..?? so that was why jared called off the engagement with sandy?? bcoz of jensen?? haha! i have been doing some thinking and and i think i dont mind if they are really being together. i mean, they keep flirting with each other for all i know! so why not? haha! JARED AND JENSEN ’s romantic moment

erm.. that’s all i can think of right now.. but there were lots of things happened i’m sure, just cant rmmber any of them except those that have been mentioned.

p/s- hey, was that brief?? hm.. i dun think so!

background music : dream catch me by newton faulkner

last thursday was my second last visit to ferny grove state school. this 8th May coming up would be the last one. have two feelings, cant wait to finish it as i dun have to wake up that early again, plus, dun wanna it to be over as i’m gonna miss the kids very much! besides all these feelings thing, have another embarrassing story to tell. happened in brisbane central station when i was on my way to ferny grove state school. huahuahua… i woke up late as usual, and was kinda rushing to take the bus to the city, and walked to the central station. i was listening to my mp4 out loud to calm myself down, to get rid of the feeling that i would miss the 7.33am train.

i showed my monthly ticket to the ticket inspector when i wanted to pass the counter. he said something i could see it, but i couldnt actually hear what he was talking bout since i was listening to my mp4. so.. i assumed he has already checked the ticket, and the ticket was fine, and he said ‘next time, plz stick it out of your wallet, so then i can see the date. thank you’ (number of ticket inspectors have said that to me before, that’s why i assumed he said the same thing too). then i said, okay, i smiled, and rushed to my platform. suddenly i heard someone’s calling me, and running after me.. i turned around and saw the inspector was running towards me. i was like, ‘what the hell?’ he said something for sure, but again i couldnt hear him, and i was just standing there, giving him a weird look. he said it again, this time, louder. ‘miss, i said i need to see the ticket’. okay, something is more serious than i thought. i switched my mp4 off, and asked him again. ‘what? the ticket?’ it was weird, coz i thought he has already checked my ticket. ‘yes, i need to see the date on your ticket’. i hasnt chekced your ticket yet, coz i couldnt see the date’. can i see the date now?’ i felt like been slappin around when suddenly i noticed i became the crowd’s attention. quickly, i took my wallet, and showed him the ticket while saying, ’sorry, i didnt hear you’. he checked my ticket, nodded his head, smiled and off me go. i was so embarrassed for 2 reasons.. one, people were looking at me like i wanted to skip paying for the ticket (okay, mebbe they weren’t, mebbe they were just looking at me as i was making the scene, but i felt like it, lol), and two…. was becoz… the ticket inspector was actually very very  CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and young! hahaha… mebbe he was new, that’s why he was so ‘poyo’ checking my ticket. coz before this, the inspetcors didnt really check the ticket, they just looked at it, and nodded their heads, and smiled and said ‘thank you’. but this one… was so poyo. hahaha.. luckily, he was cute! so, his ‘poyoness’ can be accepted! hahahaha!

but this incident doesn’t change my habit to put my monthly ticket in my wallet with the date, a lil bit hidden. coz i’m so ‘pemalas’ to get a bigger wallet (one of the bus drivers had actually suggested me to, lol), guess i dun need one.

p/s - last 23rd april, happy bday to me! i’m 22! cant believe that i’m a consenting adult! but hey, that is just a number. still, i look like i’m 17! sorry, cant help it.. haha!

(thanks to my super cool victorian housemates, ponnie, nurul and eqa. also to my old bitch who has already turned 22 earlier than me, sal. and also to shah who kindly reserved a table at pancake house to celebrate my bday, and that choc mousse is one hell of ’sedappppsss’ mousse. and also thanks to raqim who was also there!! thanks to everyone for the warm wishes, appreciate that!! LET’S GROW OLD TOGETHER! haha!)

HAIH……………
long sigh!!!

i am
-unorganized
-in mess
-out of nowhere
-lost
-blurr

WHY SHOULD I CARE???!!!!!!!!

listening to chris brown-with u, jon mclaughlin-for you from me, jordin sparks-tatoo, and mika-big gurl (u are beautiful).

today ~~

FERNY GROVE STATE SCHOOL
woke up at 6.15am. it was so late, coz i needed to catch up train at 7.33. afraid that i couldnt make it, i decided to not make my bed today. i could tell u that was a horrible feeling leaving my room disorganized like that. ‘this isnt a good start!’ i rushed to the bus stop only to find out that i juz missed the bus to the city. demn!! i wait another 10 minutes, and the bus arrived at 7.10.. huh, I arrived at the city at 7.25 and thank God, i made it to the train station in time! (u can imagine how fast i walked. i was pretty sure i looked like a cartoon..dhla pki bju kurung!)

it was the last day before easter break and the students in ferny grove state school wore free-dress instead of their blue-yellow uniform. i was greeted by few hugs from my cutey students such as hannah, jade, heidi, kayla, declan and of course, my favourite, daniel lundberg. they seemed pretty excited! zane, one of my students got a new haircut. he looked different, but still pretty shy when i praised his new look. lol.. class started with literacy block where i taught grammar to my three students, alex, zane and miranda. i think they have improved themselves compared to last two week.

10am, they had fruit break. daniel ate his plums beside me. we talked bout easter bunny before jade, zane joining us with their bananas. since it was their last day, they were gonna play some games at the school field at 12.30pm. it was so much fun regardless to the weather condition which was a lil bit drizzling. i took lots of pictures of them, am gonna upload them soon since i dun have the pics right now. besides playin games, they also made easter cards for their parents as well. i looked at daniel’s card, and he read what he wrote to me. there were few spelling errors, but his easter wishes sounded so sincere.. and cute, of course! this time, besides daniel, katie (which is actually a boy) had drawn my attention. he kept callin me, showin me his stuff and works, tellin me stories, and insisted to be my partner everytime they lined-up outside classroom for outdoor activities. i admit that sometimes it’s so hard to resist these kids..

half an hour before the final bell, i played block building with daniel, kate, lilly, zane and tyler. i helped them to do various shapes, and daniel made me a lil bird after i made him a pyramid using the blocks. lol.. then, the final bell rang. after singing the farewell song, the students were off to go. again, daniel hugged me while wishin goodbye and happy easter with his cute voice.

overall, this was more tiring compared to last two week. i felt so dizzy on my way back to the city. perhaps, becoz this week they did lots of games and activites at the school  field, but, thinkin of my wonderful students, i just smiled myself.. heh… what can i say, I’M PROUD AND HAPPY TO BE A TEACHER!!!

GERAM ~ where’s the internet guy?? stupid!
BOSAN ~ dunno what to do..
TAK TAHAN ~ i wanna go to the toilet actually but dont wanna leave this chair..
LAPAR! ~ i just had breakfast for today and now it’s 5.08pm..
X BEST ~ summer break’s over, means it’s ‘class+wake up early’ time..
SEJUK ~ coz i’m in the lib.. air cond..
TENANG ~ right now i’m listening to Life Goes On-LeAnn Rimes from my mp4 aka holy winchester..
PELIK ~ when the hell will i get the $500 bond from unilodge?? it’s been 2 weeks since i moved out..
X SABAR ~ to finish this week..
TERTANYER2 ~ my job interview on this friday.. will it be scary?
BLURR ~ jo’s offer bout ‘the one-on-one tutoring’ job opportunity..
X PAHAM ~ bout some people… greedy people.. annoying people.. attention-seeker people.. (just to name a few), well, life is complicated..
MELUAT ~ bout this person!!!!!! F*CK!
TENSION ~ mp4’s battery is KONG!! just KONG!!
RINDU ~ family back in malaysia esp my cute nephews.. a friend in UK..
BERHARAP ~ life gets betta.. and betta…

erm.. today, i went to ‘Makan House’ in West End with ponnie and eqa. it is one of bunch of malaysian food restaurants in brisbane. i ate special fried rice (xder la special sgt pon.. prawns dier je besau2.. huhu), with lauk tmbahan, water spinach cooked with belacan. water spinach tu tau tak mende? hahaha… kangkong! 1st time aku jumper kangkong kat brisbane ni.. huahua… after that, we went to ayie and akran’s house at princhester road or in my language it’s called ‘winchester road’. haha.. ponnie would have gone crazy if she missed the tv series, ‘burn notice’ at channel 10 (i dun really care, actually), so thinking that we couldnt make it to unilodge in time, we went to their house instead to watch the series.. huhu….

then, we went back to unilodge.. it was almost 11.30pm that suddenly my mom ’sms’ed me. asking regular questions like pekabo? mkn aper? apesal dh lame x call umah? haha… funny story, while we were eating at Makan House, i just told ponnie and eqa that it seemed now my mom didnt really care nmore if i didnt call home. perhaps, it was because i was in msia myself for a month before, so… senang citer mak dh x bape rindu la kot.. hehe… dan2 je after that, my mom sms tanyer apesal dh x call umah. haha… so, i replied her sms sayin i’m fine.. bla bla bla.. tetiber raser pnat lak nk type sms, so trus je la call msia. huhu… lame jugak sembang ngn mak. almost one hour.. lots of stories and ‘catch up’ session.. my mom just lost her golden nina ricci watch. huhu….. it has been 15 years, and somebody stole it!! fuck btol org yg curik tu! nnti tgn berkudis bru nk nyesal! huh!

and after that my mom told me bout my brother in law who had just lost his sister, last friday. i heard bout his lost, but there was somethin that i’ve never expected before.. i mean there was something behind the whole story, actually. she was the victim of greed, jealousy, selfishness, and cruelty. pelik btol… zaman mcm skarang ni, still ader org men ‘tuju-tuju’, ’sihir’ org laen sbb nk puaskan ati sndiri, tamak mcm sial! honestly, i nearly cried when my mom told me bout the whole thing that happened to her. God! is that the lowest of the low? really, i didnt know what to say… when my mom told me, all i could do was just shaking my head.. speechless.. i really really couldnt understand why do people need to be that evil?

i know her and she was really a good person. she had suffered for quite a long time, and now, she has been better in God’s hand. i remember my mom said this, "arwah tu senyum jer. mukanyer cantik je time dimandikan. tula rezeki org tak tgl sembahyang. sakit2 pon, sembahyang diutamakn." well, my mom was hinting on me.. i know! huhu….

back to the poor thing that happened to her, i know greedy people like this wont stop ‘destroyin’ others because that is just what greedy people do. they wont stop until they get what they want. bukannyer org2 x skola yg buat keje2 mcm ni, tpi org2 educated yg berpangkat, but still x bleh pikir mane btol, mane x btol…

question to ponder, WOULD IT KILL US TO BE MORE GRATEFUL OF WHAT WE HAVE???

introducing…….. (rolling drum.. bum bum bum pak!)
LIVERPOOL NEW STADIUM for 2011-2012 season and on,
STANLEY PARK!!!!

yeah, magnificent right?? i know!! hahaha
no matter what happen in my future, i must pay this place a visit!! (or two, or three.. or many times! hehe)
i just must!!
go Liverpool!!
reds spirit in my blood,
pride for merseyside!!
~YNWA~